I must be aware of two kinds of weariness in my life as a disciple. The first is the weariness of giving out faster than I take in. That is the weariness of overcommitment; it is the fatigue of being overexercised in my service to God for others. The second kind of weariness is more subtle; it is the weariness of God Himself. Micah refers to this when he points his finger at the Israelites: “My people … how have I wearied you?” (6:3).
As a disciple, I will discover that my life will be a series of emptyings and fillings. As I empty myself in service, I must refill myself by drawing upon God’s infinite resources. If I fail to refill, I will become drained and exhaustion will occur. One of the chief reasons I fail to refill is because I have become tired of God. In other words, I have lost my desire to be filled by God.
It is inconceivable that I can exhaust a transcendent God. Therefore, weariness can only be a symptom that something has gone wrong with my pipeline to heaven. Either it is stopped up with something or it is broken or I simply do not exert myself to turn on the spiggot. The latter occurs whenever I have discovered an interest that, for the moment at least, transcends my interest in God. Weariness with God usually begins with a wandering eye. That leads to a wandering heart, and soon I am off chasing a will-o’-the-wisp that seems momentarily delightful. It is in that stage of things that I become weary of God; He has lost His color, His richness, and His appeal to my heart. I am clearly on dangerous ground, and that is why God makes His strongest appeals to rekindle my appetite for Him. He asks me to deliberately surrender the trinkets for the gold; He begs me to give up the hewn fountains and get back to the flowing river of life (see Jeremiah 2:13).
“For My people have committed two evils: they have forsaken Me, the fountain of living waters, to hew for themselves cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water” (Jeremiah 2:13).
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